Fall down seven times, stand up eight

Day 3 of TAM

So I’m currently on day 3 of Tracy Anderson’s Metamorphosis Hipcentric and i hate to say it but …i feel like my calves got bigger.

im really hoping it’s either swollen muscles, my own distorted perception, or still coming off my period bloat, cause everyone says this shit is supposed to work!

then again, it’s only day 3. i need to shutup, stop wearing shorts and put some sweats on so i dont critcize my legs every second i get, and have a little faith.

on a more positive note…

im in love with this program! the dance cardio is extremely enjoyable for me as i have always ALWAYS loved dance and i can pick it up pretty quickly. and with my new beloved asics, i dont have to fear for the shin splints that everyone complains about(:

the muscular work is tougher than i imagined. ive done fairly similar types of exercises in the past gathered from my own knowledge of the human body and what ive picked up reading online or in magazines, but there is nothing as challenging as the 40 reps PER leg she makes you do. even for someone who has completed insanity 3 times, the TAM put me to work. my butt, thighs, and calves really ache and make it hard to run (i know, i know. i broke the “golden TAM rule” of no cardio other than DC), but hopefully that’s a good thing!

i’d like to note also that i am not following her eating plan, because i already have a diet that is considerably low in calories, devoid of any processed food and mostly any fat (i should add more “good” fats to my diet, but thats still a work in mental progress for me), extremely low in carbs, and very high in natural fruits and veggies. im pretty much the “cleanest” eater youll ever meet. it might not even be “normal” still for some people’s standards, but compared to the amount i ate before, this is a diet plan that is considered “healthy” for me. soo for the haters… if you think “eating clean” is just a cover for my “relapse”, GTFO. im wayyyyy past that shit. why would i ever risk screwing over my metabolism and putting my body through that hell again?

marathon training progress..

so ive decided on doing the carlsbad half marathon in jan 2013! it’s really exciting having a goal to work towards. im the type of person that thrives on that type of thing. still trying to work on my breathing and slowly pushing myself up the endurance ladder. im not focusing on time, speed, or any of those technical things right now. just trying to get back to the basics that i achieved before my injuries. it’s okay..it’s getting there!

the other thing im working on is learning how to drink LOTS of water. and LIKE it.

this is a pretty difficult thing for me because i have a nasty past with water, as weird as it sounds. back in my ANA days i used to drink 6-8 cups of water and hold it in for the drive home before being weighed to put on “fake weight” for my parents. it was horrible. i felt sick and it made me hate water. it was a traumatic experience, really. anyways, im trying to get over that and find the good in water.

one last note,

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